January 2012
8 posts
Flu?
In bed for 2 days and it sure feels like nobody cares. Sure, whatever.
Pen it
Caught myself at UniSIM’s website, looking at the course description and details for a BA in Sociology with Psychology. It could be fun. It could be hell. I know I’m supposed to run this by my significant other but I’m not gonna worry too much about it cos I know I’ll really apply.
I hate school that much. As useful as a degree would be, it’s not necessary....
What's so happy about this new year?
I feel, since I have had to put up with so much negativity in 2011, it is now my turn to spread some in 2012. Of course I won’t do it on purpose, nobody likes to be a wet blanket, but seeing that some still are, I shouldn’t feel so guilty about being one.
My cab ride to work was shitty this morning. DOWNRIGHT SHITTY. Cab driver couldn’t even get out of my carpark, his driving...
December 2011
8 posts
Resolution, wrecked
So much for not wanting to attend weddings again, ever. Hani just sent an invite for 28 Jan. I can’t skip it, that would be mean. That’s who I am isn’t it, afraid to offend?
I’ll go. With Chuckles and Sri or something. I’ll go alone. Yup, this year’s wedding will be attended by me without other half. Let me tell you why, because I think maybe, my other half...
Tried, just not good enough
Next time I shan’t bother putting on nice clothes, blowdrying my hair, slap on make up etc. Date nights are best impromptu when I wear the stupidest things. Fun comes when I’m sloppy. And who am I kidding with the straight hair?
Fuck the world. I’m staying in, with my computer.
We found love in a hopeless place. Called a...
Last night. Dinner at my favourite place, in where I’d like to think is Tiong Bahru. But it’s not. Because honestly, I don’t know what that area is called. I know where it is, I’m just not sure exactly. Or maybe I don’t want to tell you. Yes, that’s probably it.
Last night. In search of Toffee Nut Frappe, which I insisted was a reincarnation of Chendol Mr...
All of us are superheroes
Maybe I’m doing this wrongly. It seems that day by day, I find more need to bite my tongue and lips even more than the day before, yet at the same time, I’m lashing out like I don’t care what’s going to happen tomorrow.
Maybe I don’t anymore. Maybe that’s it. I don’t see and end to this misery, and I have accepted it for what it is and I’m just...
Her Royal Annoyance
At work we’re getting our PCs replaced with new ones and the lady sitting opposite my workstation gets hers today while I’ll get mine tmrw. Her mouth can’t shut up. She’s highlighting all the new features to me like they’re rocket science. I’m trying to catch up with work after my long weekend holiday, please.
It takes probably half a day and overnight to get...
November 2011
9 posts
The truth is, I'm not ok
My tolerance level for elderly relatives and the Malay community and culture dips with every Malay event I am involved with.
The drama with my grandma recently just pisses the shit out of me because people should stop it with queen mother behaviour just because they have children in their 50somethings. Your need for attention affects more than the ppl you want attention from, thank you.
And...
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This scene is so AWESOME.. :) @HIMYM_CBS @ActuallyNPH @jasonsegel @alydenisof @jradnor74 Cobie Smulders
Part duex
I’m slightly offended that my father thinks the man I picked to spend the rest of my life with will hinder me from being with family after marriage.
There is no opportunity to tell him that the man is just being himself, and Daddy I’m sorry, but not everyone agrees with you.
Even me.
The general idea now is that I’m being taken away. I’m offended because didn’t...
Like the good person I am
I was in the shower and thinking about chopping my locks off. For practical reasons, and mythical as well. Practical because I hate washing my hair. It’s so long and cumbersome. Mythical because well, probably to start anew.
I thought and thought about it. How it may shock me. How it may shock others. What if I don’t like it. What if it’s ugly. Then I stopped. And laughed. Just...
So so lost
Never have I been this clueless about the direction I’m heading. Never have I found life so pointless no matter what options I consider. Never have I considered running away from home this seriously.
An elaborate plan required, for something so simple. Freedom comes with a price, ironically. Free, but you have to pay. With insanity, when freedom is what you need for sanity.
I don’t...
Now
What’s there to live for anymore? I’m stuck in an emotional prison cell and I’m too picky over the one to bail me.
This and that, nothing’s done right. Am I unworthy?
What a mess
Things didn’t go too well today. It all ended prematurely, very loudly.
I’m waiting for the numbness to kick in, as it does with an excessive amount of anger and tears.
I don’t want to talk to anyone. But where will I go?
Of gold and a deeper meaning
I hear the local Malay newspaper gave negative publicity to the gold investment scheme my parents partake in.
What I am going to say is probably biased because; 1) as much as I like my race, they can be annoyingly stupid, allowing themselves to be herded like sheep 2) I really don’t need anything to happen to my REALLY HAPPY parents right now.
Look, my folks have retired early thanks to...
October 2011
9 posts
That WTF SIAK Feeling aka Extreme Sianness
While I’m genetically all woman, thus prone to PMS and whatever convenient excuses we clever creatures come up with to allow mood swings and erratic behaviour, I don’t always indulge in blaming science or other people with how I feel.
However, the recipe for disaster, I find is as simple as how I make happiness.
See, I am happy as long as there are happy things going on around me and...
Out of hand
The situation is getting out of hand. I step in to do damage control but I think some tears will be shed.
I am not even talking of my own event.
I’m starting to think maybe this isn’t a good idea, ‘protecting’ her like this. I can see why she’s so pissed, but while what my folks did was not very nice, there’s always two sides to the story.
Well while...
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Quite troubling, really
My dad always told me that without the basic knowledge of the religion, one may not be able to distinguish the ‘right’ from the ‘wrong’ and thus leads to, well, losing one’s way.
It can be hard to communicate this to others but dad’s right. With media, not everything can be believed and without your own set of principles, or adequate knowledge, one may not be...
September 2011
5 posts
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Exercise? F off.
They say the first step is the hardest so I went ahead and hit the gym. I took the first step. And then what?
I am really unmotivated to do anything. There’s no INCENTIVE, you know? I mean, if I become hot and all that, so? It’s not as if I’m going to use it for greater good or what.
When you are fat, you realise how ugly the world is and why would you want to be part of...
Lounging
Rix says when I move out, I’d probably miss my sister the most. I think he’s right. Once when she got shipped out to my uncle’s I missed her I updated Facebook, saying I wanted to make a cardboard standee of her.
Sure when we fight it gets ugly but I do wonder what it’s like not to have a sister. It’s kinda bittersweet fun you know, especially since we share a room...
Fuck that shit
Go to hell with the wedding, getting married or anything remotely close to having to coordinate with another person. This may come off as selfish but it’s very very difficult to have anything done with another person. I am not even going to start complaining about the other person and blaming that person for such difficulty to get things done. I believe that everything can go wrong because...
August 2011
3 posts
Tired
I sleep right after dinner, if I’m lucky, after I drown myself with a litre of water in my system. I’d wake up in the middle of the night and I’d feel stupid.
Travelling half the country everyday for work and I can’t even afford a car. Why work? Why can’t I just laze ard foreverrr and have Dad pay for my existence?
Because I am a responsible good person...
Just saying
Some people and their righteous comments. It really isn’t others business if one fulfils his duty to God or not. A reminder shouldn’t come as a pin to prick a bubble or water over a blanket. Talk about mood dampener. Srsly, why are people like that? Why can’t they just intergerate? Move with the groove? What’s with unneccesary comments and questions to keep ppl in check?...
July 2011
8 posts
A Fat Guy Acts Out Memes
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Really, this is all I’ve ever needed in life.
OMG. This is great.
Hilarious. XD
YOU WAIT YOU
Here I am trying to straighten things out for a better life and there you FUCKERS are, ONE BY FUCKING ONE, ruining it for me.
While I try my best not to sound like a righteous bitch, separating what is right and wrong, you FUCKERS go all out to challenge me.
The path to success in inner fulfiment and happiness cannot be paved if we do not at least, TRY, to avoid what He forbids.
Nvm that my...
Violence
I beat my sis up this morning for being rude and she beat me up after that. LOL at me because now I am lying in bed with extreme pain in my back, as I make minimal movement.
Despite everything, me calling my dad to come intervene, like the little daddy’s girl I am, my sister has apologised and I have forgiven her.
I guess I am tolerable of everything til the point that she threw my stuff...
Leave the past behind, but growing up shouldn't be...
Sex, drugs, rock’n’roll, they say.
But all good things have to come to an end. So here we are, looking reality right in the eye, telling ourselves that we’re winning, we have to be, or do we just kid ourselves?
We didn’t follow the masterplan. A plan crafted for all the other minions. I look left and right, I see moonlighting. I see an extravagant wedding. A faraway...
No problem
It makes me angry, and it fucks up my day, when I wake up, check my phone, and I find dumb suggestions of what to do with my life.
Everyone has their own to live, how about perfecting your own before preaching to others how to run theirs?
Have I been a disrespectful little brat lately? Welcome to my shoes.
But with every sign of something out of place, you present me with the choice of...
Un-spend
It pisses me off when ppl make me wait and even more so at a shopping mall. All the energy I spend resisting the urge not to spend, being the shopaholic I am, is wasteful.
Parked at random flight of stairs now. Thank goodness this is SG, no perveted hobos or anything.
